Old Habits Die Hard

I have a shitload of work to do and have been drinking all kinds of caffeinated drinks for days so I probably shouldn’t be surprised that this combination of work overload and sleep deprivation finally managed to awake my wanderlust. Which means I’m even more miserable because I don’t have time to leave my apartment for more than an hour a day. And that’s just not enough!

Today I finally caved and went for a longer walk (which reminded me so much of my midnight walks in London and Tokyo!). It was either that or going to sleep and I have too much work to even think about sleeping for next 36 hours.

After this power walk I feel less like a caged animal and more like a human. And it’s a good feeling.

I was rather pleasantly surprised by the weather: there was no icing and temperature was around ten degrees Celsius which is quite hot for December in Poland. I recorded the video below just four days ago:

▲ This is how Polish usually winter looks like. ▼ I’m not gonna complain about it yet, but I hope in about a week or so there’ll be more snow. At least that much:

photo taken by my mum a week ago

BTW, anyone recognizes what I was listening to while recording the snow? How about a small hint? 😉

It’s snowing there, too!

Insomnia, anyone?

They say that insomnia builds character. I would like to think that mine is already done. I’m a really determined person. Determined to fall asleep.

2 AM and I’m still awake, working on a song
If I get it all down on paper, it’s no longer
Inside of me threatening the life it belongs to

I blame K. who messaged me that what I wrote is unsingeable (is that even a word?) but failed to give me any significant details or pointers. Well, he was just doing me a favor, so it’s ok. But that triggered my insomnia. So now there is music in me and there are words and sleep seems unattainable.

Sleepless in Tokyo


Napping is like travelling through time (to the future)

My let’s-kill-the-jet-lag plan is working (sort of)! Yesterday I went to sleep around 11 pm like a normal person! Unfortunately, my body does not like being called normal so I woke up between 4 or 5 am. Tried everything I could think of (mental exercises, counting, breathing slowly, breathing fast, taking a shower…) to force myself into falling asleep one more time but nope. That was it.

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This DOES NOT work… (Friends)

But it still felt great not to start a day at night. AND I managed to do some work which means that in 3 hours I’m gonna be a free person with all my projects completed! Yippee!

So to celebrate all that I took a nap. And as naps are like time travels, my no-more-work-happiness moved in time (to the future). I had some weird dream (REM phase, yay!) about running away from robots (I blame my loud fridge) but my energy levels are spiking again. An hour’s nap turned me from this:

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anime: Hyouka

into this:

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Ready to kick some… I mean… Ready to work! [anime: Kara no Kyokai (The Garden of Sinners)]
So three more hours of hard work and after that, a walk around my neighborhood! This time, in comfortable shoes!

Update: I’ve just realized that it’s gonna be dark in 3 hours so I’m going out now 🙂